Lately I have been feeling like I am headed for a breakdown. So much has been thrown my way in the last couple of weeks that I have not only questioned my faith but my value as a mother, wife and friend. I am dealing with some health issues that hopefully now are under control but there is still that uncertainty and worry. I am at a point in my life where my first born will soon be leaving the nest and venturing off to start her life. I am also facing many other milestones with my other children. I have seen my children make mistakes; feel rejected and have dealt with extreme amounts of pain. Through these difficult times we have faced recently I started to ask God why. Why so much pain, so much heartache and so many tears. It was then when I shared with a close friend these thoughts and she reminded me that these things were not of God but in the evil that persists in men. We will all face hard times, that is the truth, but how do you cope when you are at your lowest point and feel so helpless? I have been on my knees praying daily for my children, my family and my health. In my time of prayer I had been asking God to take away all the pain, loneliness and hurt that I have been filled with, soon after I heard a song that resonated with everything that I was feeling. The lyrics changed my perspective and I no longer am asking God to change my circumstances but rather to change me so I can handle it all.