Embrace your scars!

Memoirs of a Broken Woman (5)

I am thankful for the woman I have become because of the journey I have walked through.The strength, courage and qualities I have found within myself through the process of the journey is unparalleled to what I ever even knew existed. An outcome that I would never have sought after but have found beauty within its findings.

There was a time in my life when there was no way, shape or form in which I could understand the idea that there is beauty in pain, grief and even depression.

Once I decided to let go of what was no longer serving me and let go of the parts of myself that were no longer in alignment with who I am it allowed me to be carried by the strength of my loving Heavenly Father.

I am grateful for the strength and courage I found through the process of my pain. By no means has it been easy and undoubtedly encompassed with mixed emotions of fear, guilt, shame and anger.

However, there is a light, ever so dimly, waiting to be uncovered by each one of us in our own darkness. It is in this singular hope that we need to continue to search for the beauty within the pain, even in the darkest hours.

We all have scars that delicately tell of our journey that has shaped us. Embrace your scars today!

When Life Hurts Most

My ideal weekend is spent with a cup of coffee and a good book.

My scars of abuse have always felt unique and made me feel very isolated in my pain. I no longer felt like a person but rather the problem. I was confused about what was normal and used a variety of defense mechanisms to get through life. I responded to the abuse I endured through anxiety, self-harm, perfectionism, the need to control, anorexia, through fear of intimacy as I became an adult and lack of self-worth. Abuse distorted my image of God and affected my ability to seek and trust Him. My confidence was shattered.

My healing began once I realized that as long as I continued to gaze inward, I would always see my scars, but when I gaze on Jesus, I see His scars and remember He died to make me whole again. I finally understood that I could trust the One who loved me completely.

It took me awhile to get there, though. For years, I felt the need to hide the shame and pain I felt. The most astounding changes came as I learned to trust Him with my past hurts. It wasn’t until I knew the One who gave me my eternal name that I would know my true self. For far too long I let the voice of condemnation darken the light in my soul.

My relationship with the Lord has grown immensely but it hasn’t always been easy. I questioned God for a long time and wondered why He would have me endure so much pain at the hands of men who were supposed to love me. I’ve had many questions, and my heart screamed for answers. I felt abandoned in my pain. The truth is Satan wants us to believe God is not good and does not care, but our Father God is never blind to the sins that hurt His people. He grieves over all sin and hates it. Sometimes the Lord deals directly with others’ sinful behavior against us; other times, it’s just not time yet. In mercy, God gives even the most evil among us opportunities to turn to Him and repent. We are not immune to evil, there is no pain free life, and evil will find its way in. God works in incredible ways through tragedy but He does not orchestrate it. Believe and trust, let God bring you through and conquer those demons of your past. He can and He will do that.

Daily Quote

She conquered her demonsand wore her scars likewings.

Never be ashamed of the scars life has left you with. A scar means the hurt is over, the wound is closed, you endured the pain, and God has healed you.

1. They tell a story – Your scars tell a story. They leave others wanting to know more about you. They’re there as a reminder of what you’ve been through and what you’ve overcome. They express how you handled a situation and insist on the fact that you survived.

2. They signify strength – A scar shows how strong you are. How strong must’ve been to overcome that one hurdle in life. They prove that you fight for the life you want. Against whatever that may have been.

3. They resemble time – The color of your scar resembles the amount of time it’s had to heal. The amount of time you’ve had to heal. Keeping watch over the healing process of your scar indicates how far along you’ve come since it became it became a part of your skin.

4. They raise awareness – Scars are a great way to raise awareness for a variety of causes. Not all scars have to be physical to make a difference.

5. They add character – They show that you have overcome something.

6. They educate you, and others around you –  talking about them can help others learn from your experiences.

7. They give others hope – Your scars are an indication of hope, in many ways.

Broken Girl

This poem is for the little girl that once was me who was lost and broken. I am now strong enough to give your pain and tears a voice. I’m sorry it took me so long.

Written by: Anonymous

Broken Girl

Daddy don’t you love me?
I try so hard to make you proud.
My mind is racing, it is too loud.
I trusted you so much, you were all that mattered.
My dress is all torn and tattered.

Tears of fear are running down my face
I hide my pain behind the linen and lace.
Daddy don’t you love me?
You were supposed to sing me lullabies
Instead you left me paralyzed.
I don’t like the games you make you play,
Daddy please go away.
Daddy don’t you love me?

In case you didn’t know I’m
Just a little girl in a grown up world.
Do you remember me hiding underneath my bed?
Was it something I did?
Was it something I said?
Can’t you see that I am tired and afraid?
All I can do is now pray.
Daddy please no more
I no longer want to be curled up on the floor.
Daddy don’t you love me?

I take another bath to try and wash away your scent,
Cruelty is all you ever meant.
I sit in my room hearing the birds sing
But there is no happiness inside me just
A broken wing.
You are not what you seem,
You’ve become the monsters in my dreams.
Daddy why couldn’t you ever love me?

 

Broken Girl

Mirrors lie….

Your are Beautiful, You are Smart, You are Kind, You are Unique.

You are worth more than the number on the scale.

You are worthy of love and affection.

Your are never too much and You are ALWAYS enough. 

Your worth surpasses all earthy things because in the eyes of the Lord God, You are LOVED!!

You are a Rose, Diamond, a Pearl, You are worth more than you can ever imagine.  

You are Powerful, Strong and Capable. 

You are a Daughter of the Living God!

The Good Father – By Scarred Beautiful

Thank you Scarred Beautiful for your courage to write on such a difficult subject. Your compassion and heart for the broken is ever so evident with this post. There are so many of us out there that have been hurt by the father’s that were suppose to protect and love us but the good thing is God is the Ultimate Father and Healer. When we allow our scars to bleed God is there to heal our wounds. My hope is that this post will reach women across this platform and beyond that need the hope and restoration from our loving Savior. I can relate to this post in more ways than one and I am so thankful that you are giving a voice to the pain that so many have endured.