When we are broken, ashamed or have been hurt by someone we tend to build walls to protect ourselves from the hurt. That is a normal reaction to trauma and pain. Who we were before the trauma is no longer the person that remains. Change doesn’t always have to be negative it can help propel us into something great. We tend to pretend that our feelings don’t exist in order to prevent future hurt. When there are no words to express the trauma we have endured sometimes the only way to let it out is through our tears. The walls we build around us to keep out the sadness also keeps out the joy. There is freedom in the sound of our cries. In those painful moments we feel less than courageous but courage does not always roar, sometimes our courage will come from our quiet voice at the end of the day saying “I will try again tomorrow.”
This is how healing begins and starts. Though we may not have chosen to be changed by our trauma we can choose how we allow the healing to change us. When we choose to see our brokenness we are choosing to no longer be in bondage to the trauma. Many of us have been afraid for far too long to let our secrets out, we want to hide from the things that haunt us. Once we are no longer afraid to face our fears we are able to walk through a path of freedom. I have finally come to understand what living for the first time really means. Shame is what binds up our soul and makes our secrets stay hidden. We walk around with these invisible chains that keep us from being who God intended us to be. Too often we walk these roads for miles and miles and can’t seem to be free from the chains and pain. The more we learn to feel the more we learn to heal. Every tear falls down for a reason. It takes time for every broken piece to find its place again.
Don’t let your yesterday be your today. I know the painful memories from your past can bring you right back to the place of hurt and too often they leave you facing the demons yet again. Just keep breathing and walk through the shadows despite being afraid. It is okay to feel pain, we need it to heal. The longer we run from it the longer our pieces stay broken.
There is freedom when we let our walls fall to the ground. We are able to stand and be free. God is waiting and willing to take that burden from us and wants to carry us through. Let your healing be the change you have waited for!
Psalm 34:15, 17-19, says, “The eyes of the Lord are toward the righteous And His ears are open to their cry. The righteous cry, and the LORD HEARS and delivers them out of ALL their troubles. The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. Many are the afflictions of the righteous, but the Lord delivers him out of them ALL.”
Written by: Memoirs of a Broken Woman