This is a new journey for me, I don’t know a thing about blogging but I will learn as I go. My reason for starting this blog is to not only share my own experiences with domestic violence but to help others that have either been or are currently in a situation where domestic violence is present. I am in no way an expert or a qualified person to give advice but I have endured 10 years of abuse at the hands of a man that I once called my husband. My hope is to reach out to others and to give a voice to those who feel like they don’t have one. I am just an ordinary woman with an extraordinary story. Currently I am in the process of writing my book titled, “Memoirs of a Broken Woman.” However I am choosing to remain anonymous for the sake of my children. It is my story, my life, my scars and it is me. I can finally say that I am on the road to healing. Every day is a new day and I am grateful for every struggle, triumph, tear and smile. I am a different woman today. This is just my way of trying to make a difference!
Lately I have been feeling like I am headed for a breakdown. So much has been thrown my way in the last couple of weeks that I have not only questioned my faith but my value as a mother, wife and friend. I am dealing with some health issues that hopefully now are under control but there is still that uncertainty and worry. I am at a point in my life where my first born will soon be leaving the nest and venturing off to start her life. I am also facing many other milestones with my other children. I have seen my children make mistakes; feel rejected and have dealt with extreme amounts of pain. Through these difficult times we have faced recently I started to ask God why. Why so much pain, so much heartache and so many tears. It was then when I shared with a close friend these thoughts and she reminded me that these things were not of God but in the evil that persists in men. We will all face hard times, that is the truth, but how do you cope when you are at your lowest point and feel so helpless? I have been on my knees praying daily for my children, my family and my health. In my time of prayer I had been asking God to take away all the pain, loneliness and hurt that I have been filled with, soon after I heard a song that resonated with everything that I was feeling. The lyrics changed my perspective and I no longer am asking God to change my circumstances but rather to change me so I can handle it all.
There is something so powerful about having multi-generational women in our lives. As women we have a unique power that we hold within ourselves that we don’t often recognize. Being a woman is a powerful thing. We have the opportunity to mold and shape and mentor other women and have a lasting impact that will inadvertently change the generations to come.